Nov 5, 2005

I salute me!

Yesterday, I was reading my poems. I am impressed with myself. I don't like the good comments and praises get into my head, but I do feel proud of the fact that every single word writen on that page is composed by me, myself, and I. I am my own fan! All those phrases reflect some aspect of my life, the one's that I like the most are from a time left long behind. That lamha, that moment, will never enter my life again, I won't allow it. The memories, however, will remain in the form of the poems that changed my life, my writing style, and made me into what I am today.

Nov 3, 2005

this is college...

I cannot log onto our school's wireless through my laptop because supposedly a hacker has taken over my machine and it is now a threat. So, the Georgia State tech department blocked my log-in ID. In order to get it reactivated, I'd have to reformat my computer and tell them about it. Yeah, I am sad about this. I don't want to reformat, it's too much work. Can't avoid it, 'cause internet is my life. All this crap took about an hour because I had to contact the tech people, tell them what the problem was, then they looked up stuff, and informed me about it.

Had a film test at 11; I entered the class 10 minutes late, finished the test in 20 minutes. Was planning on attending the Indian Student Association (ISA) meeting at 12; but instead decided to reach work early; was inside the office by 12:05. Left work at 3 and was back at school by 3:30. Didn't take lunch to school today 'cause I didn't feel like packing anything in the morning. So, before my 4 O'clock class I had some fries at the University Center cafeteria. For some reason I was tired by the middle of the class. Today's lecture was very interesting though. For the first time in Critical Thinking, I actually understood what the teacher was talking about. It was pretty cool :). After class, I again went to the University Center and had a veggie burger. It was better than Burger King.

I was sitting with a classmate while having my late lunch. Discovered a few things about her and her girlfriend. This was the first time I actually talked to a person about their relationship with a person of the same sex. When she said that some girl standing in the line was hot, asked me not to turn 'cause it would seem too obvious that she was talking about her, and kept on staring at this person... I got a bit speculative. Then she told me about a girl from her high school and some sort of conversation they had about what's up with their dating lives. This classmate of mine (don't want to give out her identity) didn't really want to tell her high school friend about her status. This particular sentence increased my curiosity. I just straight up asked her who she was dating and she told me - "a girl." The question that she then asked me, which was a given I guess, was "Do you feel odd? I mean, are you like I'm never talking to this girl again!" To which I simply laughed and told her that I'm open to everything, I actually wrote a paper in favor of gay marriage. After that I asked her a couple of things about her past relationships with guys and her experiences with girls, what she liked/disliked in each, what she prefers and why etc. It was a new experience, talking about these things with someone who has had a first hand experience with this. I would like to conversate with her more often.

Last, but definitely not the least... I met Vivek Sah at the rec center today. He's a PhD student with a concentration in Business Administration, did his MBA in Finance from India, worked in Mumbai for 3yrs, is originally from Delhi, and came to US a few months ago. He was playing table tennis with some people when I entered. I sat in a chair and watched Larry play pool and these other people play table-tennis. After a while I decided to get a table-tennis racket myself. Played with some dude and had conversation about my accent with Vivek. He has some pretty intersting beliefs about some things. Some that I've thought about, but not in great detail. Others that I didn't really bother considering. We talked for about 2 hours, touching upon a whole lot of things. I certainly don't agree with all that he has to say, but I really liked listening to his opinions because as a youngster I haven't really come across a person who thinks the way Vivek does. Well, I guess he's not really so young after already having worked for 3yrs, after completing his MBA. But I like the fact that I got to meet and talk to him. Would definitely like to see more of him.

Nov 2, 2005

Diwali, Eid, Delhi Blasts, Bhopal...

School has been going just fine. I've started working at Siavage Law Group, LLC as a Clerical Assistant. The pay is really good and I really don't have to do any "hard work." Got my first paycheck yesterday - on the occasion of Deepavali. On that note, wishing everybody out there a very Happy Diwali and a Prosperous New Year! And yeah.. Eid Mubarak! ...I really like how these two are falling so close to each other this year. This leads to those Delhi blasts. What the hell is wrong with people? Two MAJOR festivals around the corner and these basters decide to blow up three market locations. 60 people killed! Imagine, they were happy, buying new stuff, shopping for their kids, and now... their family is in mourning, kissing good-bye to a couple of years of festivities. I hate terrorists! Anyways...

After starting work, I haven't had any time to hang out with my buds at the Rec Center. Got a chance to catch up with them this week though. Got my hands on pool after a long time; I need practice more often! Classes have been going okay, not too excited about any of them. English 1101 ended about 2-3 weeks ago, got an A in that. In Enlish 1102 we got to write a 12 page research paper on a topic of our choice. I'm writing on the Bhopal Gas Tragedy, with a focus on the health effects on the survivors and the new borns. It's a very interesting subject, I think. So, far I've been able to find a whole lot of information. It is sad, what happened. When you read about it and imagine all these kids being born with deformities, women having miscarriages, people not being able to breath and see properly, all because of water - an essential source for survival - getting into a tank. What the hell did theses people do to go through all this? Huh!? A lot of companies know about this, specially those dealing with chemicals. But it is sad that the average public has no idea of what happened and what is going on. I had to make a presentation, explaining my topic etc. and students in my class (including Desis) had never heard of what was coming out of my mouth. I guess, I can't blame them. The only reason I know of this is because my parents mentioned it once in a while. I am very excited about the paper. It is a lot of work, and I HATE researching. However, my passion for learning something new should act as a driving force against my hatred for something I cannot escape (does this sentence make any sence?!).

I haven't been posting a lot of stuff here. Things happen, but I just don't get the time to write and whenever I do sit down, I write crap about school. I guess I need to find some things from whatever happens daily and elaborate upon that. Gotta improve my writing skills, like Charles Dickens in A Tale of Two Cities, going on and on about a window for two f***ing pages!