finally....... FREEEEEEE

I have broke FREEEEEE from the shackles of an American Public High School system.... damn! it feels good!!!

Yesterday was the last (unofficial) day of school. Had the last set of final exams and went to the senior picnic. They had Subway for grass-eaters... and I love subway... so I guess, I like this school now. Started roaming around the school once we got done eating and signing each others yearbooks. Went to many teachers and asked them to sign the yrbook as well.

Nothing much really, but finally... I realized one thing. I'm gonna miss some of the teachers and people here.

Done with APs!

and life seems to be b-e-a-utiful once again!

exams really sucks out all the enthusiasm frm one's body. oh well, atleast after exams we get the feeling of achieving something, otherwise what's the point of studying anyways.

got the final exams in exactly 12 days, on the 23rd and 24th of May.. after that - hip hip hoorah!

180 degrees around...

Changes are taking place faster than I expected. I sound different, feel different. My priotities have changed and so has my attitude. I'm planning of doing things that I have not done before. Not only planning, new and unique things are taking place already!

Had the AP Statistics exam today, which went well. Dad dropped me, Mom was going to pick me up around 4:30 but was caught in traffic. While handing me her cell to call Mom, Kavita asked me if I need a ride home. Didn't ever imagine that she would ask me something like that (no particular reason), on top of that I didn't think my parents would start taking risks this soon. Told Mom that Kavita lives close by and has no problem dropping me. She asked me questions due to concern, but at the end her answer was "yes". I rode home with a classmate of mine, who's the same age (well, a couple of months younger) as me. New, very new!

After school on Tuesday, I'm going to Andree's house to study for AP Government exam, which is next Wednesday. Haven't participated in this "study group" thing before, but I gotta start somewhere at some time. Marcel and Paula will be joining us as well.

The Government exam is in the morning and A LOT of seniors are taking it. So, maybe after wards we may hit Fun Bowl and use those 2-free Bowling game coupons we got. Told/Asked Mom about it. She asked me some question.. who's going? who'll be driving? etc. etc. Haven't heard a yes from her side yet, but trust me.. I AM GOING!

Small changes, big impact. Life's taking a turn; a turn... I'm liking already!

Rebirth

Prom was a success. I didn't go just reporting what I learned from eye witnesses. Reading some blogs and talking to some folks, I learned that many GHPers went to their prom with other GHPers (not someone from their school). I could have done that, it would have been perfect! Only downfall... it took me a while to realize this and well, I had already decided not to go. To state the bare truth, I regret my decision. Now that I think about it, I wish I were in that picture... prom dates walking down the red carpet, being captured by Shirley's camera, looking amazing in those elegant dresses, dancing, singing, laughing... **a deep, deep sigh** !

One mere decision can sometimes change how we see the world. People learn from their mistakes, a trout phrase but true! I guess, I've finally learned. It doesn't matter where you are, what surrounds you, or the era you are in. What matters is that you enjoy and participate in the activities and adventure and the practices of that place. Yes, they are traditions, they take place every year, but these annual events are the lasting memories of a period well lived and
experienced.

Why did I enjoy GHP so much? Because I let myself loose! I was myself, but at the same time I was truly a GHPer. I didn't refuse to go to the Saturday night dances, I didn't sit in my room when the she-women-man-haters-club crowded in Jakina and Megan's room to share the day's stories. I didn't limit myself or create a boundary around me. And that's why I enjoyed!

Huh.. well, High School is over! So, I guess no memories here, but I got years and years ahead of
me...!

An Announcement:
Thursday is Senior Skip Day. We are the class of '05 and the date on Thursday is 05-05-05. It's this years last, but my FIRST skip day. Didn't participate in any others, but am starting now. At least I could say, "Although I hated living in America because I felt that four years of my teenage life were wasted, I learned that surroundings have little to do with what mind is in control of." I'm beginning to live in High School itself, so I guess it didn't take me all that long. I got brains in K-12 itself :)

21st Wedding Anniversary

According to today's date - April 28, 2005 - Mom-Dad have been married for 21 years.

WOW!!

I've been alive for only 18 years and they have been living together for 21 years!! Just amazing how two individuals from separate familes, brought-up amongst different people, different surroundings, get to be spouses and spend years and years and years together. A time comes when the years spent with the spouse exceeds the number of years spent with parents. At one time the parents knew everything about their child, but then it's not the parents anymore. It's the husband or the wife who knows the person way, way better than anybody had ever known or would know.

Heh... life's a funny little tale.

Senioritus

What's up with lazy students? Josh always looks over my hw, cw, tests in Gov/Econ class. I didn't really care in the beginning but his attitude got annoying around mid second semester. He didn't bother studying at all!! Today was too much though. These days we are preparing for the Nationwide AP Government exam. Dees has been asking us to do Sample Tests from the book he handed us a few weeks ago. Josh was busy doing his Algebra III homework and as soon as it was close to the time when Dees would go over the answers, Josh started jotting down the alphabets (multiple choice) from my paper. I told him straight up, "It doesn't really matter Josh!" We are doing that crap for practice and Dees is not giving us a grade for it! Hope he starts putting in some effort.



another pic frm yday's rain

What the hell is wrong with me? I failed the last Trig test pretty badly. The stuff was easy, really, really easy... yet, I just didn't get it. Not only that I don't even feel like actually trying and studying. Have I caught "Senioritus"? Or has "Senioritus" finally got me? I really don't want to be at this point at this time. Got so many exams coming up :( But I just don't feel like studying. Am tired of it! Any suggestions?

barse baadal...!

Water drops poured down all thoughout the day, but I didn't get a chance to witness its beauty until after stepping down at the bus stop. At first I walked briskly in order to avoid getting wet. Soon, however, I let myself loose and started walking in a much slower pace. Got quite wet by the time I reached home. Asked Hansag to take a few pictures and went outside to feel the sky's tears on my warm face!


rain, rain, oh sweet rain!

I'm very confused about college. Struggling to figure out which subject area I should focus on. Today only I was looking at Georgia State's Philosophy program. Would love to learn about that, but becoming a Philosopher and focusing only in Philosophy will not suffice. I need something else besides it. Up until yesterday I had two courses in mind - Computer Information Systems and Finance. Both come under the Business program. Now I'm thinking about getting two degrees from separate schools. Possiblities include Business and Liberal Arts.

I am much of a thinker, an observer, a rationalist. So, majors like Philosophy, Psychology, and Sociology are obvious choices. But where will these take me?? I am interested in Business and Computers (technical stuff) as well. The only major that combines both of these interests together is Computer (or Management) Information Systems. Getting two degrees that circle around the same area (CIS and Finance) will be too specific and will not leave me with many choices. Choosing two different paths however will widen the career possibilities even further.

My interests do cover a wide range and I am interested in learning about new things be it Astronomy, Geology, or Anthropology. It's taking me longer than expected to decide on what will be the right choice for me. The most a student can do is a double major. For me, however, that's the least I can do!

finally.. b'day over!

Birthday bash finally came to an end tonight. Watched The Interpreter a pretty good movie and later had dinner with Nana-Nani. I drove all the way!

A day in History!

Best birthday ever? --I would definetly say so!!

As written in my last blog it all started a day before my birthday and believe it or not will end a day after! But here's what happened today... I recieved even more ecards and wishes from friends and family. People at school wished me in the morning and recieved calls once I got back home. Enjoyed the entire day with James and Pavan at six-flags. More people would have been great but limit was 3 people per group and everybody got a different ride to work on. In case you are confused, we went to six-flags to work on our Physics semester project. We got the easy one - huhuhahaha! Rained really hard for about an hour and that's when we did all our calculations, before that we were busy getting the measurements. Played a little basketball after coming back to school. Got busy checking and replying to mails once I got home.

Ooooooh... a WONDERFUL thing happend at six-flags... I saw Maggie and Tiffany!! Maggie was on my hall at GHP and Tiffany in my major. Awsome, won't you say? You have to agree with me that this birthday was truely TERRIFIC!

Got a cake are around 10pm. Was very tired so the pictures don't look so good. Here's the cake though...


Kishu's my nick name at home (family and Delhite - non school - friends included), some Xaverians also call me that

So far so good. In the future getting an iBook??? Possibly! Let's wait and see. I'm also gonna need it for college, and as a discount I don't mind it being a combo gift - birthday and graduation... what ya say peeps?

on the way...

My birthday has not even started yet (since I'm in US) but the celebrations have already begun! It all started this morning, when my bestest friends for the past 13yrs(!!) gave me a call from my sweet sweet India. We talked for about 20min. Felt so good after hearing their voice! Got up singing and dancing, and was excited all throughout the day. They usually call on the day of the Birthday, but Kanika's going to her Nani's place tomorrow in Rajasthan. It's a good thing they called early, now I'd remain happy longer ;)

Got back home, checked my inbox and aha! mails from all over. Thanks to all you guys!!

Tomorrow, I am going to six flags (amusement park)... woohoo!! It's a Physics trip from school, we have a project to work on. That's not the fun part! Fun comes when the words "Six Flags" are heard in a sentence. Am very excited!

Going out for lunch with Nana-Nani on Saturday.

Hmmm... 18th birthday is different that all the others... I'm an adult guys!! Yippi!

important dates

April 21 - Economics EOCT (end of course test)
April 22 - Physics trip to 6 Flags (semester project)... also, 18th birthday!
May 4 - AP Statistics EXAM
May 9 - AP Physics EXAM
May 11 - AP Government EXAM
May 12 - Recieve Cap and Gown
May 22 - Baccalaureate at 2pm
May 23 - Final exams for Statistics(?!), Physics (?!), and Programming
May 24 - Final exams for English and Trigonometry, SENIOR PICNIC later in the day
May 26 - Grandparent's breakfast at 9:30am, and SENIOR AWARDS NIGHT at 7pm
May 27 - SENIOR WALK in the morning, class picture in cap and gown, graduation rehearsal in the morning and finally GRADUATION at 7pm

aching hearts

Am I learning a lot about life lately? The peaks, recessions, troughs, and expansions (to present in economic terms since to exam is coming up) of life? I know that I really like Socrates' quote, "The unexperienced life is not worth living" and would rather learn from my own experiences than somebody else's. I actually want to feel the emotions rather than just imagine them. But you know, sometimes it's a whole lot better to be a spectator or a listener compared to actually being one of the characters on stage.

Life is unpredictable, uneven, unfair. A smile can turn into a tear within a second, a laughter into a cry, joy into sorrow, and celebrations into mournings. It is noticible in my writing that I'm converting all happy moments into sad ones, but aren't these the moments when we say, "life sucks!" There are a limited number of people who remember God or thank anyone for bringing joys into their life. Whereas, almost everyone ridicuels life if something goes wrong.

I don't know where to start or when or how to end. Don't know what all the things, feelings, emotions, experiences and/or details I should write, discuss, record in the middle. I'm not sure what names I should mention or the true stories I should spread light upon. There's one thing I do know though - everything that I'm about to write is not limited to myself or the people these are about; this is universal. Character's change, settings change, dialogues somewhat vary, but the theme remains. I'm not going to write a very long blog on this subject because it depresses me, but if for some reason this ends up taking a lot of your time, I ask for your forgiveness.

People are dying, everyday. Either due to accidents, diseases, or natural causes. Their friends and relatives are mourning on the loss of someone who left memories behind, but the memories will fade away with time. What hits hard is when we know the one who has lost someone. Even though we may have not known the person, still the human heart aches and pain brings tears to the eyes. Thinking about the situation a brother, a sister, a mother, a father may be in.

Andree' didn't know Marcel's brother, yet she was crying in class thinking about how much the 8th grader is going to be missed. He had cancer. Marcel was very close to him, often talked about his actions. I too was sad to hear the news, but for some reason didn't show many emotions. Didn't even feel much. Maybe, I've realized this truth and coping with somebody else's pains has become easier upon myself. All I pray for now is... help them God!

Regina going to GHP

Regina Addo was nominated for GHP in the field of Biology. and guess what?? Yup! SHE GOT IT!! Ghosh! I'm so happy! When she said, "yes!" to my question, "did you get it?" I started jumping and screaming and gave her a tight hug! Man-o-man... I've so glad! She's gonna have sooooooo much fun. I miss GHP!!

REGINA... CONGRATULATIONS!!!

A total number of 6 ppl got it, the other 5 are...

Logan for Math (they learn how to juggle, wow na?)
John for Physics (don't know much)
Zack for Agri-Science (they go on all sort of trips)
Scott for Saxophone (amazing, ppl go crazy!)
Brionna for Spanish (que pasa, what?)

All are 11th graders except Logan, who's in 10th.

Multicultural Fair 2005

The multicultural fair was today only. I know I didn't mention it before, but that's because I didn't participate this year. Last year I did India with Himali and Pavan. There were two other boards for India. One done by Amish, Arun, and Nemish, the other done by Anchita, Hasita and Kavita. Pavan made samosas last year and we (the Indians working at the fair) ate them all, leaving nothing for the visitors :) Couldn't help, they were soo good!


Mary-Ann (left) and Sonia (right)

Anyways, this year Mary-Ann and Sonia worked on the India board. The other board on India was put together by Anchita and Hasita. The fair was the same as last years - okay. Almost the same type of boards, absolutely the same dances (with very few variations) and the same attitude - excited and hyper at first, but as time passed watching the same thing and answering the same questions becomes tiring and a huge burden. Therefore, I enjoyed this year's better. After all I was just a visitor, saying hey talking to people and cursing them out for not having any food left (haha! just kiddin'). The best part of the fair was when I saw Miles playing his Viola. Ghosh! I just started cracking up. I don't know what was so funny about it, but it was pretty damn funny!! I didn't disturb him and went on with the fair. I was at the Trinidad and Tobago booth when he came over and said, "Yeah! don't even say a hi."


Trinidad and Tobago

So, I went to his "orchestra corner" and checked out the string intruments he had back there. Started arguing with him how his instrument is a Violin and not a Viola. After all it's played the same way! He explained the difference, "You need to be tall and have gorrilla arms to be able to play Viola." This sentence was aimed towards not letting me play the Viola. Then he actually showed me the two instruments and that's when I finally believed him. He did let me try to play it though. I'm telling ya, you really need to have gorrilla arms to play that thing (yup, exaggerating here)! My arms were not long enough (or so I felt). He was trying to put my fingers at the correct places, but again my pinky (smallest) finger wasn't long enough. I moved that stick thing up and down in an effort to make music, but whatever came out of it was something that you won't ever call music. After making me happy as anything, he played the Viola just for me... awww! Miles is GREAT!!


playing viola

Other than all the fun described above, I had a test in Stats that I did not study for while sleeping at home. Yeah, I got sleepy while trying to read the chapter, slept from from around 8:30pm till 5:54am. Started studying as soon as I got up. Isolated myself from everybody at school to understand this last chapter. I had to go over because I didn't do any of the hw assigned or even read the chapter. Due to the fair not a lot of people came to class. They were either helping at the fair or took an early break (next week is off, it's our spring break). I think I did fine at the test after all. It was not hard at all. Surprizingly, I knew what I was doing.

This six weeks I have all A's and B's, including Physics. It's that amazing? An A in Trig, woohoo! A cursin' B in English, can you believe that? B in Schernekau's?? Hate me, don't you? If you don't then I'm gonna hate you, so you better start hatin' :)

Okay listen, got a haircut today. Had been wanting to get one since forever! Short hair are SO MUCH better to take care of. In India, I had boycutt. After moving to US though, I decided on "becoming" a girl. Change is a part of life I guess. I like long hair too, but :(( you have to care so much! Plus, windy air tangles it up so bad! Anyways, this is how I look now...

breaking mom's car :D


self taken close-up. isn't that the most stupid smile ever!?

Okie dokes (and I like saying "dokes" instead of "dokie") about the Spring Break. Am not doing anything, not going anywhere, don't have any plans, will sit at home all week long and actually study for the AP exams this time. I borrowed Barron's AP Government and AP Physics books from Dees and Lee, respectively. Mom brought Amsco's AP Statistics from her school. All these books are really good. I know I can pass the Gov exam, Stats would take some work, but it's not impossible either. Physics... hahaha... let's not go there, but I'll see where I stand.

Wish me luck people!

Outsourcing Teachers (Satire)

The federal government has finally decided to outsource K-12 public educators. It has become hard to afford skilled instructors due to the federal deficit, which is on the verge of crossing twenty-nine trillion dollars. Most of the money collected in taxes is going towards welfare . The battle for jobs is often won by overseas candidates because of their high reliability and low income demand compared to United States employees. This is resulting in more and more American workers being laid off. Not being able to find a job drives them to the “welfare community”.

“It took us a long time to realize this, but finally it has come to our attention that the American youth is not gaining anything in K-12 public education ,” said the Secretary of Education. “All throughout the nation, the Board of Education of numerous counties hold unnecessary meetings organized for the teachers on working days that result in hurting the students academically,” he added.

John Smith, a High School student from Georgia, stated, “Teachers almost never come to school. Even when they do come to class most of the time is wasted talking about hair do’s and nail salons. Other times the question ‘why are we even doing this?’ is given more importance than the actual course content. ” Smith’s girlfriend, Julie Sparks, exclaimed, “We never get to finish the course of study and the final average is bumped up all the time!”

Making all A’s and having a high average sounds good, but the American population is now understanding that there is no point of a 4.0 GPA when they are being lead to the welfare house due to the lack of skills, knowledge, and potential.

Recently, on the events of Easter and Holi, one of India’s major festivals, President Bush held talks with the Prime Minister of India about hiring over one million teachers. They would have to work during nights due to the time difference. It may seem like a stress to stay up all night long , but the rewards that come along with the job would convince many foreigners to become one with the “night owl” generation.

Special apartment complexes, with 24 hour wireless Internet connection and video conference devices, will be built in all the major and fastest growing cities. Each apartment complex will have a 1-800 number in the main office with a direct line given to all teachers in case students need emergency help. Also, free web space will be provided to post homework and class work. Students may also start a discussion group and/or email the teacher. The web URL will look something like www.offshore.k12.us.in/teachername. The apartment complexes will be considered “American soil.” After the initial five years of service, teachers may apply for U.S. citizenship. “The concern of America not being able to replace the declining population due to hunger and suicides, both being results of unemployment, will soon be solved,” the Secretary of State told reporters.

“We have handed the entire responsibility of teaching to India’s Department of Education,” said Cheney. “Research shows that the Indian education system is very effective. An average Indian with just a Bachelor’s degree is much more intelligent and a lot more effective and efficient in his or her work than the top Americans with a Master’s degree in their hand. ”

In a secret investigation it was discovered that the United States Department of Education will soon be shut down. “Our education department does not do anything, the results are obviously in front of us. The suggestion was given a lot of thought and the decision was made after numerous debates. We are hoping to utilize the money saved here to spend in welfare,” quoted by an anonymous source.

In India the news is already out and has been published in the major newspapers as well. An article in The Hindustan Times claims to have great ideas for “making the American public capable for today’s world.”

Prime Minister Manmohan Singh says, “Since we have been handed over the job by our good friend America, we will do it well!” It will be done just like at home. Students will be given an exorbitant amount of compulsory practice work on a daily basis. Failure in completion will not only result in a possible zero on the test but also the deduction of points from the final average.

Keeping America’s future in mind, Bush also suggested a treaty according to which capable American youths will be shipped off to India to be able to work from there since the scope here is too less. In exchange, the same number of Indians will be sent immigration letters. On asking what will be accomplished by this, the President replied, “We do need someone paying us for the jobs, don’t we? ” and finished his statement with the words, “God Bless India!”

Holi Hai !!

Wishing all a very happy Holi, the Hindu festival of colors.
If you would like to learn about the festival go to
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Holi

32100

After writing my last blog about that 4yr old case, I heard on the news about a guy in Minnesota who took his grandfathers' gun to school after killing both the grandfather and the grandmother and shot 10 people at school, including himself. Don't know what the reason was, but wow... life's really so uncertain.

So, has anything of interest happened lately? Hmm... I don't remember much except that I have a good long term memory (I guess). I was looking at the board and noticed the date 3-21-05. I kept on staring at it, and saying to myself, "that looks familiar. Something is on this day!" Looked at it for a couple more minutes and exclaimed to myself, "It's Rani Mukherji's Birthday!" That was not it though. After a little while, I remembered. It was also Mr. Shook's daughter's b'day. How do I know this? Well, last year he mentioned that his daughter was born on a very interesting date - March 21, 2000. You can also write it as 3-21-00. Notice the numbers? They are in decending order - 3210. Yeah! Saw Shookie later in the day and asked him how the b'day went :) He was surprised!

School has been alright, nothing exciting. In programming, we can't use C++ anymore because the compiler that we use does not have all the needed functions in its library (or something of that sort). So, we are switching to HTML now. Did a bit of that at GHP. Since we are just starting and doing the basic stuff, I know it all. HTML is pretty easy, I should say. It's cool that we can create an entire website out of scratch, that too while only working in the greenroom. It gets boring after sometime though.

About Janki and Nirali... it's the same as before. No questions from their side as to why I left their company and of course no such talk from my side either. I know that they must have talked about it amongst themselves and this shows in the way they now act. Seems like, Janki feels awkward while talking to me (atleast that's what her facial expressions imply) and Nirali, well well, her's is a totally different story. I have two classes with her - Trig and Stats. We see each other? Oh yeah, of course! Do we talk? No! Smile at each other? I do, however, I don't recall her doing so. Hmm... so what's the matter? Who knows, all I can assume (which I should not because I do not know what's going in her head. Plus, I hate when people just assume crap, without hearing the other person's side of the story) is that since I left, without even saying a word, or giving an explanation, they find it rude (I would too). But hey, they didn't see it coming. How long did they think I would take up their crap and just sit there, stare at their Gujju blabering faces, and not do anything. I went along for 7 months, didn't I? Now, If they think talking about soap operas I don't even get at home, or talking about movies that I haven't even heard of is more important than taking care of a "friend" well then... they won't make many friends, now will they? Except of course, if their friends also see the soap operas (throwing away time and getting happy, sad, depressed, cranky, feeling everything for dumb characters in a stupid show! I mean, isn't your life enough of a roller coaster that you want to sit in somebody else's seat?).

Well, back to the happy me :) My birthday's less than a month away (hey, hey, hey!). I'll be eighteen! I can spell that too... wooohooo!!

Life is so uncertain

Today, during second period (English) I got to thinking about something that happened about four years ago.

A 6^th or 7^th grade girl was killed by her school bus. After getting off at school she was crossing the road from the back the bus, when the driver started reversing and the girl came under the rear tire. This was not it. The driver changed gears, started moving forward, and once again the same tire rolled over the same body. All this happened in front of the girls’ older sister (probably a 9^th grader).

Next day, the two major newspapers – Hindustan Time and Times of India – printed the picture of the mother and another, distant, female family member of the family on the front cover. The mother had tears on her cheeks, her eyes were still wet. I guess she had stopped crying, but she felt helpless.

All this was in the news for a couple of days, we also talked about it at school. While at home, I’d often think about it and look out my bedroom window towards the balcony of a house that, in a huge tragedy, lost one of its children.

I didn’t know they lived there until this happened. Now, whenever I went bicycling and crossed the road in front of their house, I’d always look up at their third floor apartment. It seemed very seemed very quite up there. After a few weeks, the older sister started bringing her younger brother (4^th grader, I believe) downstairs to play. Whenever I saw them, I would think… “They used to be three. There used to be someone amongst them who was close to both of their ages at the same time. Old enough to talk and listen to her 15yr old sister and young enough to play with her 10yr old brother. That one 12 to 13yr old was the bridge between the other two siblings.

The little boy used to play around with his cricket bat and actually enjoyed the company of his friends. His sister, however, didn’t do much except just standing, watching her brother play. She probably used to share a room with her sister. The same sort of a room I shared with my brother – 2 single beds, 1 or 2 study desks, 2 cupboards holding clothes and other possessions. At night they may used to talk about things, share the day’s stories, ask for homework help… you know, sibling stuff. But now, one of the bed’s was empty, possessions untouched, and nights all quite.

It was like any other morning, but that one morning changed the lives of these people forever. I can’t imagine how they must have felt. I mean, a member of their family just gone like that. They never heard her voice again, or saw her laugh, or cry. They never got a chance to see her grow up, to throw her parties, to scold her. Just a couple of minutes of one regular (or at least so it seemed) morning took away so much from them.

Just got to thinking about all this after a really, really long time.

Zindagi Ka Safar Hai Ye Kaisa Safar
Koi Samjha Nahin Koi Jaana Nahin
Hai Ye Kaisi Dagar Chalte Hain Sab Magar
Koi Samjha Nahin Koi Jaana Nahin

Zindagi Ko Bahut Pyaar Hamne Kiya
Maut Se Bhi Mohabbat Nibhaaenge Ham
Rote Rote Zamaane Mein Aaye Magar
Hanste Hanste Zamaane Se Jaaenge Ham
Jaaenge Par Kidhar Hai Kise Ye Khabar
Koi Samjha Nahin Koi Jaana Nahin

Aise Jeevan Bhi Hain Jo Jiye Hi Nahin
Jinko Jeene Se Pehle Hi Maut Aa Gayi
Phool Aise Bhi Hain Jo Khile Hi Nahin
Jinko Khilne Se Pehle Fiza Kha Gai
Hai Pareshaan Nazar Thak Gaye Chaaraagar
Koi Samjha Nahin Koi Jaana Nahin

What lies behing my eyes?

Found the link to Quizilla at Prasoon Gupta's blog. He wrote that whatever the quiz said about him was very true, same was the case here. I would say, all of it is true!

In your eyes, people see life... You see yourself as just an average person! You enjoy life, love wildlife, but also enjoy time with those who know you best. You like to get outdoors and let your mind wander over all of the mysteries god gave to you. You don't really have a certain sanctuary because you're so well-rounded, but you like having fun and adventures, but can also be found sitting quietly about, reading a book. You have a pretty good life ahead of you, never trade it for anything else :)

Kiss na!

Nana-Nani had a Satyanarayan Katha at their house today. For which MausaJi and Anuj bhai came down here yesterday. The pooja was supposed to start at 10am, but we are total Indians. Nana is very punctual, but it doesn't help much if all the others are slackers. We got their after 11:30 and that's when everything got started. MausaJi was expecting it to finish within an hour, but we kids know our Nana. It took almost three hours, as I suspected. MausaJi and Anuj bhai left for Charlotte around 6pm.

After coming back home I started watching Kisna, a movie I had been wanting to see for a long time. Had read some reviews about it and expected it to be a pretty good movie. I got impressed a number of times, loved Isha Sharvani (she is so damn flexible). Got a little bio online...

Isha is 20 years old who lives at an ashram in Kerala, India. She is trained in gymnastics, martial arts, yoga, ballet, kathak, aerial dance etc. She started dancing at the age of seven and has already performed in 22 countries in the last seven years. Her mother is of Indian-origin, Daksha Seth, dancer by profession. Her dad is Australian, Vissaro, a composer by profession. She has been named by her mom (first name) and aunt (last name). "Isha" means goddess, and "sharwani" means Parvati = Goddess Parvati. She originally intended to a vet by profession, but couldn't bear the thought of injecting and hurting animals. She received an email from Subhash Ghai's office, who were looking for an actress with some knowledge of dancing, to act in Bollywood movies. She and her mom went to Bombay to visit Subhash Ghai, and an year later she was signed as the female lead in "Kisna" opposite Vivek Oberoi. There are already two other "Ishas", named Isha Koppikar, and Esha Deol in Bollywood.

She didn't have much of an acting role, but whatever small scenes were shown of her were simply fabulous! Vivek Oberoi was looking alright, sometimes I like him, sometimes I don't. Antonia Bernath, Oberoi's love interest, sometimes looked good. The movie was boring at times, but overall I liked it (sigh)! Some scenes were copied off other movies, but the overall story is really good.

It made me wonder, can two people who are madly, deeply in love with each other, afford parting because that's what they HAVE to do, live a normal life, get married, have kids, and yet only belong to that one person they fell in love with. I don't know, I don't think I'll be able to do that. Somehow, I'll always feel that I'm betraying no one else, but myself. Maybe I'll change my mind after I grow up a little more.

Anyways, watch the movie if you get a chance. Watch with someone you never want to let go of, so that when tears roll down your cheeks, somebody's there to hug you and to say, "Kiss kya? " :)