Jun 29, 2004

"Don't you think she has a pretty little face"

"Don't you think she has a pretty little face" said Miss Suzie all of a sudden while looking at me. Kristen, Emily, and Tiffany had just finished presenting the book Who Moved my Cheese. She really liked their board and wanted to probably suggest something for the display but couldn't really think of anything. Kristen sits right next to me and she had the board with her. While trying to put it on the table for comments, it covered a little bit of my face, and that is when Miss Suzie complimented. :D

Yesterday, an RA read my palm. According to what she saw, I'm very independent, I'm pretty sure in what I want to achieve, and I'll be successfull in whatever I do. My love line is also very solid, I do not jump around in relationships, and before getting involved I think about it a lot. Seems like I'm going to have a long life. In short, a pretty good life :)

The dance on Saturday was not much fun in the beginning, but by the end it got pretty good. Since it was boring at start, Kyle, Steven and I went to the Georgia Hall and just chatted until we heard the song "my heart wheel go on" play. We ran outside, started singing, and then Kyle and I slow danced. After that, we pretty much stayed outside and danced (basically jumped and yelled, but called it "dancing"). I must say though, by the end it got pretty good. They didn't have many good songs this time, I'm probably going to post some hindi/punjabi music CDs tonight for the next dance.

I woke up at 12pm on Sunday. Got dressed, and watched Devdas with the girls on my hall. They liked it. I left in the middle to work on a project with Andrew, but found out that he was out with his parents, so I tried to research some good hindi movies for next Hindi Film Session. I didn't get anything except - DDLJ, Hum Aapke Hain Kaun?, and Kuch Kuch Hota Hai :-/ Later that day, they played Mouline Rouge. It was a pretty good movie. I did get tears in my eyes :(

My break's over now, gotta go.

Jun 24, 2004

I’m unnecessarily overstuffing myself :(

Food at Palms is not great, but I still overstuff myself. I had dinner 2+ hours ago, and even now I'm so full that my stomach hurts!! Today has been totally crazy. I decided not to eat at Palms because I was tired of eating the same thing everyday (Pasta with Marinara). So, I had bread-bhujia in my dorm. I had had a good amount when I walked out. Yet, when I saw Steven I went into Palms with him so that we could discuss our plans for the evening. Since I was standing in the line talking to him, I also picked up a tray and got corn, a piece of cake, some fries, a bowl of rice, and a glass of coke. The cake I had today is the best thing I've eaten so far at Palms, it was absolutely fresh! Simply loved it!! I didn't finish eating anything else. Rice wasn't good, fries were not very soft, and the corn was too plane. While walking out I got a cup of ice-cream just because it’s the only thing we can take out of the Dining Hall. That overwhelming feeling of actually taking something out makes me take that one cup of vanilla even if I don't have any space in my stomach.

I was full after my minor as well. Again, I didn't have any space for any kind of food, yet I had a bowl of spaghetti, cheese-sticks, another piece of cake, and coke. This time I did not finish eating anything! Still, I ate a good part of whatever I took. Overstuffed, AGAIN!!! This time I did not take ice-cream though, but I did take cherry coke with me. I tried it for the first time today, and it tasted alright. Keep in mind this was after I had already eaten, so that means it really is good!!

In Computers we got started on HTML today. It looks pretty good, I'll get it easily. While working on my assignment in Computers I was listening to some desi songs online. When the class got over, Ms. Jones told me that she has a friend that owns an Indo-Pak store and keeps Indian DVDs. She asked me if I wanted to watch any, and if I did then I should let her know because she can easily get those to me :D. Isn't that great?! We are thinking about putting up a Hindi movie seminar with one or both of the Indian RAs this summer. I'll probably go talk to them about this serious matter ;)

After minors, we went and saw 2 episodes of friends along with some bloopers. I think living here at GHP has made me loose interest in TV as well. Yeah, I was laughing while watching the show, yet I did not really enjoy it. I wonder what's happening to me :-? Later, I played a little Table-Tennis and then began the journey to Palms (just explained the whole deal to you, don't even make me think about it!).

After eating, I decided on going to the Fine Arts building to see what the Theatre majors do there everyday. I liked what I saw, it's really interesting how they exercise and practice. I wish I was one of them.

I've asked Suban to get me some audio CDs that he has. I like the songs I have, but I'm really tired of listening to them. I may also ask Sylvia to let me borrow a few CDs from her collection. Lately, I've been listening to "Mere Khwabo Ka" from the movie "Jism". I've put my player on "Repeat 1" and the same song is played over-n-over again for hours in my room. I just love the words of the songs and the music is also really slow.

Mere Khwabon Ka Har Ek Naksh Mita De Koi
Sukhe Patto Ka Bacha Dher Hai Jala De Koi
Mere Khwabon Ka Har Ek Naksh Mita De Koi

Meri Pehchan Ka Ek Shaks Isi Shehar Mein Hai
Main Bhi Zinda Hoon Zara Usko Bata De Koi
Mere Khwabon Ka Har Ek Naksh Mita De Koi

Kuch To Tanhayi Ka Ehsas Mujhe Kam Hoga
Mere Saaye Se Agar Mujhko Mila De Koi
Mere Khwabon Ka Har Ek Naksh Mita De Koi
Sukhe Patto Ka Bacha Dher Hai Jala De Koi
Mere Khwabon Ka Har Ek Naksh Mita De Koi


Although the words are impressive when you read, they sound a whole lot better with the music and the sur that the singer uses. It's a must listen! I wish I could write something with so much dard in it.

Jun 23, 2004

"I just need a cough syrup!"

I caught a cold because the computer lab is extremely cold and the weather outside is extremely hot!! So, for my cold I had been using Vicks VapoRub and Vicks Inhaler, also I had been eating Halls. Since I was coughing so much I decided on going to the Infirmary and getting a bottle of cough syrup. This 2 second job took 20+ minutes. I went there and simply said that I need blah blah. The lady at the front desk asked me to fill out some papers and then to wait for the nurse. I tried to emphasis on knowing what's wrong with me and what I need, but NO, I had to see the nurse according to her. Anyways, so I sat there for 2-3 mins and the nurse came out and mispronounced my name (like everyone else). I corrected her while getting up.

Before going inside she checked my weight. As we went inside a series of crazy questions began that had nothing to do with me getting a bottle of the syrup. "Have you ever had surgery? Have you ever had a fracture or a concussion? Do you have any allergies? Have you suffered from asthma? So, why are you here? When did you catch this cold? Have you been taking any medicines? What type of VapoRub? What is an Inhaler? Do you need anything for the cold?" She also checked my ears and how my lungs were working and my blood pressure and temperature. WHEW!! Finally, I did get what I needed and I fled the scene of boredom and unnecessary delay as soon as possible.

While I was getting this check-up done, Steven was sitting outside waiting for me. I didn't exactly know where the infirmary was so he directed me. Later that day we went to Yoga and to the movie together. Yoga was a little tiresome; the movie, Young Frankenstein, was awesome. I think they are playing Three Triplets of Belleville today, am planning on watching that one as well.

One good thing about GHP is that no matter what you need, no matter how much it costs, whether medical supplies or stationary items or food, it's provided to us GHP students at no cost whatsoever. VSU gets $1.5 million for this 6week summer program from the state of Georgia. We are a bunch of lucky kids!!

Jun 22, 2004

Indian movies/music is very popular at GHP

Life's back to normal? Really?? Hmmm...

Weekend was alright. Parents came over on Saturday, checked me out and I spent the night with them. Watched Hum Tum, it was an ok movie, not very great, not very bakwas. I missed the dance on Saturday, but heard that It wasn't a big deal. Coming Saturday's theme is "Super Heroes". I'm dressing us as "Desi Gal" ;)

Today we have a movie playing, don't know which one though. Will be going there with Steven, Brittany, hopefully Suban, and anyone we meet on the way :P. The movie's at 7. Yoga is at 4:30, I think I'll go there today and see what it's like. Tomorrow there's this dating game at 5:30, I signed up for it, let's see how that turns out to be ;)

Other than that, I don't have anything planned. I got started on reading the second book, How to become a CEO. The chapters are really really short, and the book sounds extremely interesting. I think I'm going to enjoy reading this. The due date for this book is June 29. We are also supposed to present what we read to the class. Only Andrew Johnson and I are reading this book, so we'll be teaching the class. It shouldn't be a big deal, the language is easy to understand and so is the concept.

We had a presentation today, but since a speaker had to come in only 3 people went. Kyle Campbell and I (we are working together) will probably go tomorrow. We researched Ted Turner - how he got started, how successful he is, what all the things he founded/started/bought/owned/owns etc. The presentation should be easy-breezy.

Oh! for the last two days I have not been eating lunch at Palms, isn't that great?! I had SUBWAY both the days, but I will go back to eating at Palms from tomorrow. The fun thing about Palms is sneaking things out ;). We are not allowed to take food outside, except icecream and yogurt. I put fruits and crackers in my back all the time. The thing is I hardly eat breakfast in the morning, and usually I get dressed late so it doesn't leave a lot of time to go in, get food, eat it, and stant in the line to put the trays away. So, I get these things the day before and while walking to West Hall (where my major is) I just eat an apple. In the break, I either get out another apple or munch on crackers. Today I was eating bhujia though. Some students asked me what it is, so I offered them some. They thought it was spicy. Haha!! I said, "Oh yeah, maybe. I don't even realize that, since I am so used to eating it." Only a few liked the way it tasted, whereas a lot of people on my hallway liked it when I was eating in on Monday evening.

I discovered that Sylvia, my next door neighbor at my hall, is very much interested in hindi movies and songs. I was so surprised to hear that she loves Mohammad Rafi's voice. There's another girl, Kwanza, that really really liked the movies Devdas and Lagaan. She was singing the songs O ri chori and Radha kaise na jale. She knew the words to them!!! Sylvia has 15 cd's of Indian music. I gotta borrow some from her!!

I better get going now. Gotta get to the gym for Yoga. Chao!

Jun 18, 2004

Nobody knows and no one ever will...!!

Nobody ever knows what's going on in someone's head. Neither can this be guessed by how they act or what they write. I write a lot of crap in this blog when I have nothing to do and/or I'm bored, I just come here and start writing about things that I often wonder about. Only I know how I really feel about a certain situation or how I have changed due to a certain happening.

These days I'm back to writing "sad" poems, this does not mean that I am sad all the time or heartbroken. You know, the very first time that I wrote a depressing poem was not because somebody broke my heart, but was because I was about to do something of that sort to someone I knew. So, if after reading my poems you think that I am a "poor soul" then you are WRONG! DO NOT ASSUME ANYTHING. If you want to know something, clarify it by asking ME and only ME! Ofcourse, there is a chance that I'll refuse to talk to you about the topic, but you can't believe something that you hear from a third person. And you really can't say that what the person is saying is something that he really wants, because many times we make decisions not to make ourselves happy but to satisfy someone else. Every once in a while we have to sacrifice something we love for the sake of somebody who loves us. This does not mean that we want to leave it.

Please do not ask me to write "happy" stuff just because that is how I need to be. THAT IS WRONG!! If I need to cry I WILL CRY! Crying and writing whatever keeps my system clean. This is how I get everything out from inside that is bothering me. That is why my shayris blog's subtitle is "thoughts of the conscience and the sub-conscience mind." Althought I do not think of those things regularly or on purpose, they still are hidden somewhere inside me. I'm just getting them out!!

Geetali Sharma

Jun 17, 2004

I need Halls!

I had two ice-creams today and my throat does not seem to be good. I need Halls, will ask mom to get me a pack when she comes down here to see me on Saturday.

The presentation went well today. Mrs Suzie liked each and everyone of those. She has been saying since the first day of the program that this year she has a really good group, she can feel it. While commenting on our performances today she said, "This is just the beginning, you'll give even better as move on, and I am going to say, I loved this one. None of my past groups have ever done such a thing before." She expects quite a lot of us. I think even I'm willing to do my best in this case.

I do not remember what I had for lunch. But I do know that I did not eat everything :-?

Minors started today at 1:30pm, I got into Computers. Yup! We got a lot to do before the end of these 6 weeks. Learn quite a lot and then apply all that in the making of the website. It's gonna be fun, I'm sure! In the class first everybody introduced themselves - name, major, background, why they chose this minor, and something that they like about GHP. For the rest of the period, we first "played" sort of a bingo where they gave us a sheet which had 25 some things written on it. We were supposed to walk around and find people whose personalities it most likely matched. Whoever finished first got a Chik-fil-A meal. After this "fun" activity we aswered a few basic questions about ourselves, typed them up, took a picture and put that on the paper aswell, printed it out, placed it in a folder and then left as the class got over.

Later I went to my dorm, dropped my stuff on the bed and stormed downstairs to attend a seminar. Decided on playing spades. Won 436 to 76 - hahaha!! I'm the Best ;) While I was playing, my cell rang, it was mom. So, I was talking as well as trying to concentrate on the game. It went fine, we still won! Wooohooo!! Haha, I don't even know why I'm excited about this, it's just a game... and so is life. Winning, loosing sab chalta hi rehta hai.

Waise, life's not bad. Yeah, there are a few days that don't go well, but if one just continues to think about that and does not try to come out of his depression then he is hurting himself. Because sooner or later, everybody has to move on. Life changes man, and we need to change with it. Nothing stays still, 'cause if it did then there's no point in living. Not knowing what to expect in the future is what makes life exciting and adventurous. Plus, everything that happens, helps us learn a lesson. It may take a while to understand the meaning behind it, but it will come to us! Just keep smiling, and "hoping for the best".

Don't cry because it's over, but smile because it happened.

I simply love this saying. Gotta apply it too. It happened yaar, and it did happen for a reason. Yes, I did learn something, am not sure what, but I know I did. Do I want to move on? - NO! But, do I need to? - YES!! Do I want to forget what happened? - YES! But will I be able to? - NO!! ... So, remember it and cherish the memories forever. Yes, I will "<<.........>>" every now and then, he will too. IMH : jaane kyun.

I wrote another sher yesterday. I like that one too. Interesting, huh?? and man, you know, these are the sad sort of shers. Wow! dukh bhare geet hum phirse gaane lage. :O I just wrote another one, took me 4 mins, I like this one too. You know, even if I'm not sad or not smiling at the moment, I can still write something of that sort. Please don't think that I'm depressed and can't find to do anything, 'cause this happens with me all the time. Split personality sort of a thing, hmm :-?

Anyways, back to today. I will be going to the bedtime stories seminar today. Wear my nightsuit and walk to the Mezz in my slippers and listen to them. So cute na. Then I'll go to bed, probably wake up early in the morning. By the way, Nana-Nani are coming to see me tomorrow. So, right after my major I'll give them a call to see where they are. Oh my god! This means no Palms meal tomorrow... WOOHOOO!!! Nani's bringing me bhujia, yippy!! I love eating bhujia with bread, kya bindas maal hai, kasam se. Try it sometime!

Ok man, I better get going. Gotta get ready for the stories :D
Good Night! Shubh Ratri! Shabba Khair! Buenos Noches!

Jun 16, 2004

GHP = nothing like school

Life at GHP is great! It's nothing like school. Yeah! we do get assignments and projects and classwork and dormwork and we do try our best to go above and beyond, but we do not get a grade for anything! All this for no grade, no scolding, no nothing!! Just being here marks us apart from everybody else. They keep on repeating that the 675 students present here at the Governor's Honors Program are the TOP 1% of Georgia's High School students. This is a great honor in itself. I'm thankful to Mrs. Brew for nominating me. and I am proud of myself that I made it through both the interviews. GO ME!!

Today at my major we made Stress Balls. We also had to come up with an advertisement for it. Amber and I are working on it together. The presentation is tomorrow. We'll be doing a skit. Also, I have to read The One Minute Manager tonight. I have only read the first page so far. The book is not long and at most should take only 1:30 hours. I will finish reading it if I choose not to play games or attend any seminars.

I met couple of other GHPers today. They are really fun. We started out playing Egyptian Rat Screw and then moved on to Uno, making up our own rules and eliminating whoever and however. Nick, Tarun, Robert, Derin, Steven, Joey, Emily, Kristen, Merissa, and I had pizza at The Loop in the University Union after the crazy game session. Pizzza was not that good.

The Faculty Recital that was held yesterday was so-so. My eyes were trying to fall asleep, but I had to keep them open. After the Recital I met a few other desis. Sameer Gupta, a guy with glasses and some other dude. The guy with the glasses is really polite and respectful, he's majoring in Theatre. Sameer and the other dude are Soc Studs. Today, I met 2 desi gals - Pooja (Math) and Sheila (Soc Stud, I think). The ABCDs here are so much nicer than the one's back at the school. I guess it's the "Top 1%" thing, who knows.

I finally signed up for Computers, Soc Stud, and Math for my minor. Desided on Computers because they'll be teaching Flash, Macromedia and all that sort of stuff, plus they'll be designing the GHP 2004 website. I'm kinda interested in all those things, plus designing the website is like leaving an impression. Students, Teachers, RAs, Faculty, Parents, everybody will check out the site from this year. Students who get nominated next year will also try to see what GHP is like through the site. So, I want to be a part of it :)

This Saturday we are having the Twin Dance. I haven't decided who I will be pairing up with. It doesn't really matter as long as you go there and have a good time. I'm hoping to meet great guys ;)... by the way, TP looks really good, so does SG and there's this other desi dude who looks kinda nice and seems to have a quite personality, I hope to talk to him soon :) and about TP, I didn't even see him until today, but pretty good for a first day meet :D

Nana and Nani are probably going to come see me on Friday. I'm gonna ask them to bring me some Bikaneri Bhujia and Haldiram mixtures. Other than that I'm not sure yet, but I will think of something soon!

I haven't been getting up early in the morning like I planned to so that I could run in the morning. Hmm.. let's see how tomorrow goes. I think I'll be attending the Yoga session tomorrow, just to see what it's like. The students who went yesterday said it was pretty vigrous and that they're not sure about the next time. Hmm.. interesting!

I guess I'll get back to my dorm now. Gotta read that book!!

Jun 15, 2004

Complicated life + Day2 at GHP

I am a little down today. Yeah I do know the reason. Nope! I’m not homesick, that’s never the case!! Anyways…

Today I did not do much, and I’m not planning anything either. I was late for breakfast, just had 2 bananas. Ate pasta and salad at lunch, & put some crackers in the pocket ;). Talked to mom and Hansag. Haven’t yet attended any of today’s orientations, am about to leave though. After the orientations I’m just going to read the book The One Minute Manager, which will probably take an hour and then I’ll go to that faculty recital. I know it will be fun, the only thing I’m concerned about is whether I’ll be able to enjoy it or not.

Why is life so complicated? I know we ourselves make it this way but there’s no way to straighten everything up either. After a really long time I wrote a 4 liner, and I actually like it. I like it! And it’s NOT about Mr. Flattered… it has nothing to do with Nem, and I like it, huh!

I just feel like listening to slow, sad, songs/gazals/oldies. If anybody who reads this blog has any such numbers in mind please leave me a message with the song name and singer/album. I’ll appreciate it a whole lot!

Oh, by the way… the library at Valdosta State is just awesome. In case you don’t know, Governor’s Honors Program is held at Valdosta State University in Georgia. This is really like a college experience and I’m glad I’m here.

Ok, so what is GHP? Hmm… tell or not to tell :-? How about this – you check out the official GHP site for now and I’ll explain it on my own if I feel like it, or if I have time, or if I’m not down, or some other time.

All of the students here are so smart god! I feel so stupid. I did get a compliment that I “sound” smart… well… hmm… interesting! And my roommate is great. Her name’s Katie urf Kate and she is majoring in Piano. Woohoo! I know a musician ;) and you all know a future Business women – Geetali Sharma who is majoring in Executive Management.

I attended the orientations for Fitness, Math, Science, Social Studies, and Technology yesterday. They all sound really fun. It’s really hard to decide which one to pick, but I think I’m going to put Soc Stud as my first choice, Tech as second, and Math as the third one. Science is also great. They’ll be doing Genetics, Forensics, Ecology, Anatomy, Chemistry, blowing stuff up and a lot more! Soc Stud is mostly discussion of a number of things such as Philosophy, American family life, the 1960s, Criminology, and the rest I forgot. In Tech we’ll be programming robots, learning AutoCad, making t-shirts and a few other things. Math is more on the fun side, well so is everything else, but in math they’ll teach us writing programs, doing mental math (and I mean LARGE numbers), playing chess, drawing tessellations, and you get the idea. Fitness is kachra!

Ok, gotta go now… later!

Jun 14, 2004

Governor's Honors Program

I am finally at GHP and believe it or not I’m having loads of fun. Today is just the first day… and seriously there’s so much to do here. I have a feeling I’m going to have a bindas summer.

I woke up at 5:30 in the morning on Sunday and we left at 6-6:30 to get here. Arrived here at 9:45 although my check-in time was 9:30 (but you know us Indians are always late!!). Okay then, checked in and unpacked all my stuff (btw, although it’s a dorm, it looks really good :-?). Parents went to an orientation and after that we had lunch at Subway. Students had their orientation at 3:30pm (mom-dad left then) and right after that we had dinner (which was ok) then dorm meeting, then another student meeting, then gender meeting, then another dorm meeting…whew!! It was very, very, very tiring. I hit the showers after everything and at 11:30pm lights were out. I slept pretty well.

This morning I woke up at 6:30 and left the building around 7:40. Had breakfast, and was later for my class :-$. After the 4 hour class I had lunch. Since then I have been attending orientations for minor courses.

Whatever I just told you won’t make sense unless you know what this GHP is. Unfortunately, I don’t have time right now… maybe tomorrow.

Okie-dokes… see ya later!